I dont really know what one of those moods is exactly. I suppose the only way i can describe is thus;
I am finally getting things together. AKA I’m working - not a final career move but the ball is moving -, i seem to be making good money, enough to buy some shit and live a little. i have some great comrades who, like myself, find themselves at a turning in their lives and can relate to my home and work life.
But this said, I feel, a bit… misplaced.
I look around at people who are so frigin talented without even trying and i wonder what am i contributing exactly?
I suppose everyone goes through the motions when finding their place in the world, but i keep wondering why i care so much? Will it change my life to know that my place is not all that significant in the grand scale of things? Will that make me feel better? I think not. And lets face it, who’s place is significant? Who really changes the world and knows that that was their purpose in life, born to do that thing?
So here i sit, thinking maybe i should stop thinking so much and just go into the world doing what makes me happy and hopefully my tombstone will read ;
' Here lies a girl who lived '
All i can hope for, right?